When in Doubt, Do the Thing
Doubt kills possibilities. When left unexpressed and rolling around in your
mind it can sabotage a healing or a desire of any sorts.
This is what happened for me during a Coaching session (and what can happen for you too!) when I leaned into doubt by Doing, expressing my doubt verbally with my Coach, and watching the magic unfold into new desires. What emerged was a new desire to feel freedom in my sexuality and a new desire to explore more of my erotic nature.
Many years ago, as that little girl who was being glared at and scrutinized by her mother with regard to my body and sexuality, I had been locked into that coffin of shame. I was not able to allow anyone to see me naked in the flesh. Furthermore, I couldn’t imagine anyone seeing me naked while I touched my body and turned her on!
The Day of Becoming
It was during a virtual session with my coach over Zoom, that I experienced what I once would have considered a miracle. After being guided through a body mapping session exploring touch and the 5 Types of Erotic Blueprint pleasure possibilities, I found I had successfully remained fully present.
The session had come to an end. It was at this quiet, still moment that was so safely and sacredly crafted that I felt and realized the miracle of pleasure. My mind, body, and soul merged in agreement to the heart of pleasure. There was that moment of knowing when my Coach began to play music, a sound bath that invited openness and completeness. Laying upon my soft fur blanket, with one hand on my heart and my other hand on my pussy, tears began streaming down my face and I truly felt calm, comforted and cracked open. Acceptance coursed throughout my entire body. It all washed over me like a gentle wave.
I am no longer that child. I am a sovereign woman with amazing abilities to feel deeply and completely. I am healing.
This insight, the realization that there is a correlation between my past and this present experience, is truly an expression of pleasure. This life’s journey has been divinely mapped, a path connecting body to mind to spirit.
The Seed
Everything has been a preparation for the next event, and I am savoring the Goodness!