To fully realize the power within my heart, I must feel safe in my body

Woven into my bodily experience, are all the emotions that flow through it at any given time, reminders of timelines past present and future. Trusting my incredible nervous system to regulate that chemical intersection of body and heart, that which is the animal part of me, has been a challenge.

Today, I believe that knowing how to create safety for myself in both my body and my mind is the most important step to cultivating a sublime intimate relationship with myself. From there, unearthing ecstasy becomes possible and will likely manifest in unexpected ways. And this is divine.

**Wisdom**

I say the human body is so incredible because it expertly wields the wisdom to manage and integrate numerous functions simultaneously, without the need for conscious thought- a seamless performance without my mind directing a thing. That is not to say my mind is bad or has no purpose. But perhaps I need to shift my beliefs to better honor my body in all its magnificent abilities.

Clarity.

The more I reflect on the past, the more clarity I’ve gained around how my mind had been hijacked into believing it ran the entire show. I was always seeking the next thing/person to help me fix the problem. And the problem according to my mind, was most certainly me. I was shackled by beliefs fueled by shame and blame, much of which I have dished it out myself. Just a few of my beliefs along the way…….

Believing we are powerless and that we always need a doctor to heal the strange pains we may feel in our body.
Believing we need to take a pill to regulate our emotions and be consistent.
Believing there is only one way to walk a spiritual path and that is the predominant religion of a culture.
Believing that money, property and prestige will bring happiness and is the sole answer to solving my problems.
Believing and feeling my sexuality has nothing to do with any of this thing called life…. that it can be evil, wrong, and is a problem in my life and our world.

Suffering

My experience living with these beliefs and others that have not honored my body on so many occasions, resulted in the reoccurring theme of suffering.

I could also say, the ego part of my mind overshadowed my Higher Self, prioritizing being “right”, and feeling in control, over knowing pure love. It is profound- this realization that there has been a direct correlation between the physical pain and strain on my nervous system over the years and the false hoods about self, conjured by my mind.

Choice.

So, what’s a person to do with all this suffering and manifestation of pain in the body? How can one possibly live life from a place of comfort and pleasure?

Well, I have discovered that it’s about MAKING THE CHOICE to meet ALL facets of my being - my mind(ego), heart (higher self), and body(animal) - right where I am at any given moment in time, with intimacy. To let go absolutely and became OPEN to exploring beyond these cultural beliefs.

My big, unanswerable question for a long time was, “how do I get there?”

**Change in Action**

While I have gathered many tools in my seeking journey, it was not until I made the choice to really spend time with myself (and I had many excuses) and DO the work of self-intimacy, was I able to DO LIFE lead by pleasure and not suffering.

What did this look like?

I began to practice being with all of the “me-emotions”, the pains, beliefs, traumas, addictions, successes, failures, pleasures, and more.
I began to dive deep into the Orgasmic Arc experience, with my body leading the way.
I learned to give my body (animal), mind (ego), and heart (higher self) a way to communicate through UPLVL Communication (truly liberating).
My energy has changed yet again. This has been my journey and I am thrilled to shout it out!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Meeting Myself

When in Doubt, Do the Thing